Know What I Hate?

Know what I hate?

I hate it when you get a zit on your face that is so big (how big is it?) that you sincerely feel concerned that you might be growing a second head.

I hate that, but that’s not what I am talking about here.

I hate it when that self aware head sized zit comes in a day after you hit your “damn, I gotta shave” point. The zit is protected by a barrier of face fur and the idea of shaving it brings to mind gallons of blood spilled into your bathroom sink.

I hate that, but that’s not what I am talking about here.

I hate it when you still shave, despite the new brain growing on your neck and you think you did a good job shaving round the no-fly zone but a half hour later you feel an itch and realize that you missed a circle around the zit that has a radius of about half an inch and now you feel like you must look like some sort of mutant and have to go back to the bathroom and carefully dry shave around the zit in order to make yourself feel more human.

I hate that.

At least it’s Friday.

Might be Time to Leave Facebook

I’m really tired of the fascism and science denial and inability to know truth from lies on facebook. I think it’s time to bail. I am thinking about blocking everyone except Jen and the kids and the guys in the band. I’m sick of learning how stupid people in my life can be. How completely lacking in feelings or humanity so many people are when you remove the sham of direct personal interactions.

Right now I look at facebook and I just want to tell everyone there to go fuck themselves. I’m just so sick of it all. Obviously it’s not everyone, but I feel like I no longer want to worry about collateral damage, if you know what I mean.

Twitter and Instagram are the other social network services I use and they are both awful too, but so much of facebook is just bile and I think after 13 years it is time to flush away the puke.

American Life is Exhausting

He said that catching covid was a blessing from god. I hate to sound like a broken record, but the 210,000 corpses likely disagree. Or they would if they weren’t so dead.

I don’t have the energy to do anything. I just watch TV and doom scroll twitter. I could be playing the guitar right now but instead I’m watching TV and doom scrolling twitter.

We’re less than one month from the election. It’s a goal to work toward. The results are irrelevant because the election will be rigged again, just like 2016. Until that time though it is this pie in the sky future seen through rose colored glasses. Our absentee ballots haven’t arrived yet. I heard a report on the radio the other day that said the ballots should all be in the mail by the end of the week. What happens after that, we’ll have to wait and see.

I’m so tired of this.

I am So Tired

Massachusetts had its 9,000th Covid-19 death today.

The United States of America had its 180,000th death today.

I am so tired of this. I am tired of having a president who ignores 180,000 deaths and over 5,000,000 sick people. I am tired of having a president who incites racial violence on TV every day and I’m tired of seeing my fellow citizens follow his lead and murder people in the streets. Cops, teenage kids, murderers. I’m tired of having a society that is so broken that some of us actually applaud a 17 year old with an assault rifle blowing people away because their skin is the wrong color. I’m tired of inequality based on skin color being okay with people.

Those people have been consumed by hate. I fear that I will be consumed by hatred of them. I’m just tired of it all. I’m tired of corruption and to think that an election in November is going to be anything other than rigged to keep the corruption gravy train rolling is just naive. I want to be hopeful, but I just don’t see it happening.

Grass

My country is burning and there is nothing I can do. I feel powerless. I feel impotent. Our neighbors are being murdered in the streets for the crime of having the wrong color skin, more neighbors are dying of a plague that should be simple to avoid but isn’t because so many of my neighbors feel that their comfort is more important than other people’s lives.

I need to feel like I have control over something or else I’ll loose my mind. The grass. I have control over the grass. It’s way too long so I’m cutting it all even though doing so makes my back hurt like you wouldn’t believe.

It is an absolutely gorgeous day here in this place that used to be called America.

Pissed Off Red Head

This is an “I’m a pissed off red head” post and it has nothing to do with Donald “Fascist Piece of Shit” Trump.

It’s March 31st.  We have a gig tomorrow, April 1st.

We’re at the start of a weather forecast that’s calling for something along the lines of 13-20 inches of snow between tonight and tomorrow.  Tomorrow morning I have to make the drive to Concord for one of the kids’ school events.  It’s a 40 minute drive without traffic.  I expect the drive to actually run around 3-4 hours.  Then I have to get home in time to load out of our rehearsal space and load into the bar and set up and soundcheck and oh my god my head is going to explode at the thought of how horrendously shitty tomorrow is going to be.

Mother nature is almost as big a piece of shit as Donald “Nazi Pile of Pig Filth” Trump.

Almost.

Two Twitter Politics Thoughts

I posted something to twitter last night that got a little bit of a response. I replied to a CNN post saying essentially two things. First, Trump is a fascist. Second, what Trump labels fake news is not in fact fake news.

There were about five responses from conservatives. Four of them swore at me. I’ve never met any of these people, I just don’t agree with their political ideology. Yet they felt the need to swear at me. Okay, that’s the world we live in now. The CIVIL in CIVILization is clearly lost on much of our society. What can you do though, hate is just so in fashion.

The other response is probably notable because it came from the first two conservative responders, and because I found it really hysterically funny. They both commented about how CNN is fake news. They didn’t react to me calling the president of the United States of America a fascist, they commented about CNN. So obviously they agree that Donald Trump is in fact nothing but a dirty, disgusting, orange pile of fascist goo.

The movement is spreading, folks! Resist!

Fascism Wins

The Fascist States of America?

The United States of Fascism?

The United Fascist States of America?

A government of the white male (not any female, minority, immigrant, non-Christian, or non-heterosexual), by the white male (not any female, minority, immigrant, non-Christian, or non-heterosexual), and for the white male (not any female, minority, immigrant, non-Christian, or non-heterosexual).

I hate myself for this, but I called it. I sat on my couch late at night, watching the Brexit results coming in, and seeing the responses of the people in the United Kingdom, and watching their economy self destruct in one night, and I said that if they could vote against their own interests in such a colossally stupid way, then the United States would do exactly the same thing and elect Trump.

All through the months of the campaign when I was supporting Clinton full blast, including donating to her campaign (I’d never given money to a candidate before), I knew deep down that she would lose. I would lose. My family and friends and all the people I care about would lose. I knew in my heart that the Fascist fucker was going to win, and oh look he won.

Today is a great day for racism, sexism, homophobia, nationalism, isolationism, perverted Christian evangelism, and hate, and it is also a crushing defeat for America.

Calendar Hate

The one single month that I hate the most out of all of the months on the calendar is DecemberJanuaryFebruaryMarch.

September is a close second. Why? Because summer ends in September. First the temperature drops, then the leaves start to fall, and then summer ends. Screw you, September. I hate you. Hockey training camps and pre-season games make the pain a little more bearable, but not much. Not enough.

Ugh… I hate you September. You suck.

Happy September 1, world.