I went to the sugar free bakery in Salem, NH today. I am in a phase when I go there once a week on my way to the grocery store.
Today… they gave me free stuff. Not anything that I would ever eat, but still… free stuff.
What does it mean? Did they give free stuff to everyone or am I just suddenly a VIP customer?
I hope they gave free stuff to everyone because I don’t think I want to be a bakery’s VIP customer.
I feel like I should be posting something as my Tuesday lunch break comes to an end. I can’t come up with anything though. There are a few little things. Today hasn’t been the painful day I was fearing it would be. There have been a couple of annoying things at work, but nothing we can’t handle. Bellana left us yesterday and won’t be back until Summer. We still have Harry around for a few days, but we’re driving him back to school on Sunday and then we’re kidless for a couple of months.
I have avoided using retail therapy to cheer myself up, but junk food is another story. We had ice cream last night. I’ve had a lot of chocolate today. I need to stop this crap and start being more careful. The first weight loss surgery appointment is next week, but it’s only to drop off paperwork. The real first appointment is next month. Sigh.
I am off work tomorrow. That’s nice. I took the day off just in case Bellana ended up needing a ride to the airport. She doesn’t, so I am free. Patches has a vet appointment and I still have to get two Christmas presents for two of my nephews over to my sister’s house. I am trying to stay as Covid safe as humanly possible until Harry is back at school. I think the vet appointment is a curbside thing but I am not sure. I guess I’ll find out tomorrow, huh?
Okay. I guess I came up with something to talk about after all. Time to get back to work. That bug ain’t gonna fix itself.
I was good yesterday. Almost.
Good breakfast, good lunch, no between meal snacking until after dinner. Dinner itself was bigger than it should have been, but not the end of the world. There were peanuts, of course, but I didn’t over do it.
So what’s the problem? The snack that came after dinner but before the peanuts. A chocolate chip cookie sandwich with about a two inch thick vanilla frosting filling, that’s was the problem. I cheated. I was bad.
It’s not the end of the world. It could have been worse. I didn’t fall off the wagon or anything, I just had a moment of weakness. Big deal. I’ll survive. I’ll recover. I won’t say that I won’t do it again, but I will say that I won’t do it often. Frequent junk food is one of the reasons I’m in this mess in the first place, I’m not going back to that.
I cheated, but it’s okay. I just won’t cheat again for a while.
Today is my first day working from home since restarting weight watchers and getting back on the diet and exercise bandwagon. When I am in the office there is a soda machine and a candy machine and a cafeteria full of good stuff. It’s pretty easy to avoid it because it involves money. If I don’t take any to work with me then I can’t be tempted.
At home things are different. Our decision to do this happened quickly and at the time there was still a fair amount of junk food in the house. There is a box of cookies and a bag of chips literally three feet away from me as I type this.
The temptation is there, but I will rise above it. I can beat this!
I actually do have will power. I’m just giving it the night off.
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