Tag: Stress

Good News is Scary

We got some good news about my father’s condition today. I should be happy. I should be thrilled. I am, partly, but I’m also scared out of my gourd. The good news involves coming home from the hospital for a couple of days before going back to the hospital again for major surgery. We thought he would be staying in until the surgery and the post-op recovery were complete.

He’s good enough to come home early. Yes! He’s still going back next week. No!

My emotional state feels like scrambled eggs look.

A Little Lost

My head doesn’t feel like it’s on straight today. Why is today any different than yesterday?

Dad was moved to a new hospital on Tuesday and spent the day yesterday getting all sorts of tests. We have an idea of what’s coming but we don’t know when and we don’t have any details. It feels like we’re back into a holding pattern and it’s messing with me.

Something I ate last night (too many peanuts, methinks) isn’t playing nicely today and it’s irritating the hell out of me. Stupid digestive system. I also got a pretty shitty night’s sleep last night. That’s not helping the situation.

I have meetings booked for the entire morning and part of the afternoon. What if a call or a text comes in while I’m busy and I can’t get to it? What if I miss something?

I feel useless and pointless and lost right now. Well… I probably always feel a little useless and pointless and lost, but now those feelings are kind of taking over and I don’t like it.

Is This a Bad Sign?

I was running around like a nut today, all kinds of busy, getting stuff done, meeting deadlines.  My mind was wandering and I really wasn’t paying attention, but when the thought, “it’s been a long day” popped into my head I had to stop and assess the situation.

I looked at my watch.  5:50am.  I had literally only been awake for 50 minutes and I was already thinking that it’s been a long day.

That is a bad sign, right?  I am in serious trouble today, for sure.

At least it’s the last day before a long weekend, and the kids are at our house for the whole thing.

Bright side, babie.  Bright side!

Guitars Have a Hidden Use

Did you know that a guitar is more than just a musical instrument? It has an extra hidden use too. You know those stress ball things that you are supposed to squeeze the hell out of when life gets you down? Well stress balls ain’t got shit on an electric guitar. When the feels start overwhelming you, like say if the United States just swore in a fascist prick as it’s new chief executive, you can bash the living daylights out of your guitar until the pain of the real world subsides slightly, or until your fingers start bleeding.

The Christmas Season is Here

I don’t like Christmas. Well, that’s not entirely true. I love Christmas. I just hate all the crap that leads up to it. My step son asked me why I get so stressed out around Christmas time. I told him because, for adults, Christmas is just the most stressful time of the year. It’s just the way it is. I usually try putting off the prep work for as long as possible. This year my family was okay with that to a small degree. The house remained Christmas free until December 10th. The season, however, is now officially in full swing.

There is a tree in the living room. It’s not decorated yet, but it will be today. Probably by lunch time.

Trips to the mall have been made. Mostly to help the kids get the various gifts for the various people they need to buy gifts for. Thus far we’ve been pretty unsuccessful, but amazon.com should fix things for everyone.

Speaking of which, amazon.com has been accessed and put to good use. It’s not over yet though, far from it.

We still need to finish the shopping and decorating. Then there is wrapping and cleaning and cleaning and cleaning. Then there is cooking and cleaning and probably more decorating. Then Christmas eve we have my wife’s family over to do gifts with them. Then Christmas day itself comes and all of the stressing out and preparations are over and we can just enjoy the holiday.

Then we have to clean up. Yikes!

HoHoHo!

Random Flickr Pic

The work day is ending. I’ve wrapped up what I was working on. My wife is on her way here so that we can drive together to get the kids. I am in a complete state of terror that my phone will ring before I can sign out for the weekend.

Here’s a random Flickr Pic to help keep my mind off of the phone.

It’s Niagara Falls. Sure it’s only been a few weeks since we visited, but I wouldn’t mind going back with the kids.

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Three minutes until I can punch out.
Two minutes until I can punch out.
One minute until I can punch out.

Tired

As my lunch break nears its end I sit here thinking…

That I haven’t posted today.

Yesterday was nuts.  I was crazy busy all day and didn’t have time to eat anything prior to about 8:30 at night, never mind post to this page.  Today has been crazy busy too, but not as bad.  It feels about the same though.  I’m tired.  I’m back into one of those sleeping-is-difficult stretches that I sometimes get into.

I had hoped to maybe catch up on a little sleep over the weekend, but I ended up sleeping less than normal.  This coming weekend probably won’t be much different.  Two weeks from now though… we’re on vacation.  I have to survive nine more work days (including today) before I get there.  It’s going to be rough.

We had planned to go to Quebec City on the vacation, but taking children out of the country when you have shared custody and the other custody sharer is not going too involves more paperwork than we expected and we aren’t going to have it ready in time.  That means we need to rework our plans to stay within the US.  I asked my beautiful wife if we could try to at least get ourselves to the Canadian side of Niagara Falls before the summer ends.  She thought we could pull that off.  We just need more documentation than we realized when we started thinking about Quebec, and now we really don’t have enough time.

So where should we go?  Jen mentioned Virginia last night.  Virginia Beach sounds nice.  I’ve never been there, but it’s in the South where it’s warmer and it has… ya know… a beach and stuff.  That works for me.

What other options are there?  We could always go back to New York, but we’ve done that a couple of times now.  There are always the mountains in New Hampshire or Vermont?  Those are always great, but it’s still April.  Maybe we want to chase the warmer weather this time.  I don’t know.

I would prefer to avoid Pennsylvania, other than to drive through it to get to somewhere else.  We haven’t had bad luck there, but some of their roads have annoyed me enough that I’d rather go elsewhere.  There is always upstate New York.  We haven’t gone there with the kids.  Is it too cold for Lake George?

I’m looking for ideas, folks.  Feel free to add suggestions.