I got a decent night’s sleep last night, but I am still really tired. Not as tired as I was yesterday, or the day before, or the day before that. I’m not doing a very good job sticking to the no caffeine policy. In four of the last five days in the office I’ve been getting a Coke Zero after lunch because I can feel myself running out of gas. It’s annoying to me. I don’t want caffeine anymore. I don’t want soda anymore. I want to keep losing weight, and even with diet sodas I don’t feel that I am helping myself by having soda.
Oh the struggle.
In the past when I’ve lost weight I’ve felt pretty good. What’s the deal this time? I have lost more weight in the last two months than at any time I can remember. Why then do I not have more energy than I did before getting on the wagon? Why am I tired all the time. I should have 32 pounds worth of additional feel good pep coursing through my veins. I feel gypped. Really.
Not that I am going to fall off the wagon any time soon. I’m in this for the long haul. 32 pounds down, something like 160 still to go! (not really. I don’t have a goal in mind. I just like the sound of what the weight value would be if I lost 190 pounds during this weight watchers stint. A fat boy can dream, right?)
Inside the Red Head's Head 