I’m really bad at weight watchers.  This is all sort of sudden.  I didn’t used to be bad at weight watchers.

This weekend was the end of the kids’ school vacation so we honored the occasion by going out to eat twice and even going out for ice cream.  I was not good, diet wise, but not too too bad.  The ice cream was bad but I didn’t go overboard and I had been backing off on snacks to make room.  The dinners out could have been bad but I stuck as close as I could to simply filling foods.  I did cave in to eating bread both times.  That wasn’t good.

Last night though… last night I redefined “bad”.  Last night my behavior would have been bad even if I wasn’t on weight watchers.  I had a huge dinner.  I mean, off the chain giganticly huge.  That was bad.  I then tore through a big pile of junk food with an embarrassing abandon.  I spoiled a lot of good habits that were starting to develop.  I feel bad.

I feel bad, but…

I am putting it behind me.  I am not going to let one bad night turn into a bad week.  Yeah, I might be considering not weighing in on Saturday, but I would still like to go to the meeting.  I need to re-apply the gung-ho feeling I had a few weeks ago.  Yesterday is over.  Today is a new day.  I’m doing it the right way.  I fell off the wagon a little bit, but I’m back on and I’m pissed off.  No more cheating!

Onward to success!

Well, we are one week into the weight watchers wagon.  I did all right.  Very little snacking, and almost all of it was what they call power foods.  Portion sizes were WAY down and few if any questionable eating choices were made.  Additionally, I only had caffeine once this week and that was only because the building I was working in didn’t have a water fountain.  How cool is that?  Zzzzzzz zzzzzzz

My week one weigh in happens within the next hour.  Wish me and my beloved wife luck!

Today is the first big test of the latest weight watchers attempt.

Last night I was stricken by what my mother used to call The Hungry Horrors. I wanted to eat everything in the house. I did a decent job of fighting the temptation, although I wasn’t perfect. So far today the terminal case of munchies hasn’t calmed down much if any. That’s not good. Also, today is my telecommuting day. That’s not good at all. So… hungry horrors combined with being home alone all day…

Oh crap. If I were in AA I would seriously need to hit a meeting.

I can be strong. I can fight the temptation. I will rise above my stomach (which is really saying something because that dude is HUGE)!

Will Power!

Here’s the history.

In February of 2014 my wife and I joined Weight Watchers after a particularly junk food filled Christmas and New Years. I don’t think either of us were really that motivated and we let it fizzle out after four or five weeks.

Next came Labor Day weekend. My wife and I had a pretty difficult conversation regarding the state of our health. We both felt sick all the time and were concerned that we weren’t going to be around much longer if we didn’t start making changes. We talked about going veggie. We talked about going juice veggie. In the end we stepped back from the ledge a bit and decided to give Weight Watchers another try.

From Labor Day weekend through mid-December I lost about 37 pounds. Then the Christmas temptations got in the way. I went to one weigh in in late January and I had gained a few pounds back. That was it. The mountains of snow that came after that sucked any desire I had to do anything right. I told my wife that I would choose a date in early Spring and make that the back on the wagon day. The date changed a couple of times, but it’s finally arrived.

During the snowpocalypse of this winter I had an issue with my debit card. I slid it into an ATM and it was gone forever, never to be seen again. When the new card was sent to me I tried to update my weight watchers account but for some reason I could not get it done online. Eventually my account was cancelled. I was sad. Not really, I just knew I’d have to re-up. I didn’t know if I would have to start a new account or if I would be able to reactivate the Labor Day account.

The back on the wagon day arrived today. I ended up with a brand new account that is not tied to my Fall numbers at all. I still know what those Fall numbers were, of course, and todays weigh in was ugly. Not, however, as ugly as I had feared. I’m still around 15 pounds under my Labor Day weigh in. I was pretty surprised with that. I felt as though I had put every ounce of lost weight back into my gut. That does not matter though. I’m starting with a clean slate. This week is week zero and my weight loss count sits at 0.0 pounds.

Jen and I went food shopping this morning and bought all the things that we were eating while having success last year. I’m going to have fish for dinner tonight. 12 months ago that would have grossed me out to no end. Today? I can handle it and I know it’s for a good cause… my health.

Wish us luck.

Today is the day kids.  Today is the day we get back on that mean ol’ Weight Watchers Wagon.  Skinny, here we come!  I’m ready to get back down to my weight from this picture:

(I’m the skinny dude on the right, with all those freckles.)

But seriously folks, the goal is to lose weight, be a little healthier, feel better, and not die of a heart attack before I turn 50.  Last time I lost more weight and stuck with the program longer than I ever had before.  I just need to replicate and then improve on those results.  I need to make real changes in my life in order to be healthy, and it starts today.

Its almost midnight.  You thought I was going to miss a day, didn’t you.  

My step son’s school band concert was tonight.  Excellent!  It let out a 9:00, and I went there straight from work.  I picked up some McDonalds on the way home.  Come Saturday when Weight Watchers comes back I will put an end to such things.

Sadly, tomorrow night is my step daughter’s school chorus concert so I’ll probably McD my dinner again.

It all changes on Saturday.