Tag: weight loss

Food

I sat down to eat lunch a few minutes ago and read this article from NPR.  It is about how people who were obese but lost tons of weight still have to deal with the stigma of being fat.  Mostly the article talks about it in terms of dating, but there are other things like stretch marks and loose skin.  I could care less about the dating issues, but all of the other problems the article discusses made me think one thing…

Gee, I sure wish I had those problems.

I mean, if you’re going to have problems, dealing with the downside of losing a ton of weight would be preferable to dealing with an extra ton of weight.  Know what I mean?

I’m tired of thinking about food.  I don’t want to have to do it anymore.  Sure I prefer the way things are now to the old pre-human hunter gathering days when statistically speaking any meal you ate was probably your last.  I don’t think about food in that way, and I’m very happy to be living a life free of the threat of starvation.  Really, I am.

It’s just that I am thinking about food all the time now.  Can I eat that?  What should I have to eat that won’t mess things up for me.  Did I eat too much?  Did I eat too little?  Will that make me feel sick because it’s good for me and my body doesn’t know how to handle things that are good for me?  How much of food that is good for me can I have before it stops being good for me?

I was really good for most of last week.  Thursday night we ate out and I seriously over did it.  Then on Saturday we had Jen’s mother and step father over and she made a fantastic meal and I grossly over did it.  Yesterday I was good all day.  Even at dinner I kept it under control.  Then I got hungry after dinner.  I stuck to weight watchers simply filling approved food, but without even realizing it I ate way too much again.  Before bed I made my lunch for today (which I am nibbling on as we speak) and I realized that I ate nearly a week’s worth of grapes yesterday.  What the hell, Rob?

I want all of this to become second nature.  I want my body to tell me when it doesn’t need more food.  I don’t want to think about what is right or wrong to eat.  I just want it to become a habit so that I never even consider going off track.

I know though, that even if I do lose 200 pounds like the guy in that article it is never going to be second nature.  I am never going to not think about it.  I am never going to not drool all over the place when walking past the chips isle in the grocery store.

I know it, and that makes me sad.

Weight Watchers Weigh In

We pushed off our weigh in for one day so we could go leaf peeping yesterday. So our Saturday weigh in happened on Sunday. I was feeling good about myself over the week, but I didn’t expect the results to be this good.

I was down six pounds for the week, for a grand total of 22 pounds. I hit the 5% mark. I am pretty surprised I hit it this fast. I expected that I would be starting to level off by now, especially after only losing two last week. Six pounds, however, is more than I’ve lost in any one week since the first week.

Even better, Jen lost again too and she hit the 10 pound mark! WOOHOO! I am so proud of her. She’s sticking with it and getting results. She’s amazing.

The Wall has been Hit… Again

On Friday night Jen and I were discussing weight. What can we do to lose it? Surgery is an option, but it’s a really scary one. Let’s put that on the back burner for a while. What about diet and exercise? That sounds good, but we both lack motivation and will power. What can we do? Some extreme options were mentioned, like a vegan diet, or an all liquid veggie diet. Those are also on the back burner. We decided to join weight watchers again. We both tend to do well in that framework, especially when we go to regular meetings. It’s damn expensive but the results have been pretty good. We had our first weigh in yesterday and we went to a meeting. We can’t get into the habit of missing meetings like we did last time. We have to stick with it. I lost about 20 pounds when we joined just after New Years. Since we stopped, I’ve gained 25. Not good.

As for exercise, we decided against a gym. With our work schedules and long commutes it’s just hard to make ourselves go enough for it to show any results. Instead, we bought a treadmill. Let’s start with that and see how it goes.

Cleaning the house

I just watched five deer run through the woods. Where were the other two, or three? Deer sociology is a mystery to me.

What was I talking about? Oh yeah.

We are giving the house a full on post-Christmas cleaning this weekend. We got to two rooms yesterday and the improvement is gigantic. We can walk from one end of the living room to the other without having to jump over anything (except maybe the cat). Today’s goal is the kitchen, dining room, and bathroom. Unfortunately after two straight days of shoveling, and a full day of cleaning, my back hurts more then it has ever hurt before. It might be a tough day.

Tomorrow we try getting back on the New Year’s Resolution/weight loss bandwagon. I know I’m yo-yoing like mad here, but you have to start somewhere, right?

On the Wagon

Monday.

Two things happen on Monday. First, I will begin my stint as a two days per week telecommuter. I am adding Monday to my usual Thursday. It’s fitting somehow seeing as how today marks nine years with this company. The two things are not related, but it is still fitting some how.

The other thing is far more important. I’m getting back on the wagon. My weight is out of control. It’s time to start being smart again. Exercise. Stop eating junk. Don’t eat as much. Cut down on non-diet soda, if not on soda in general. If I don’t get this crap under control I am not going to be able to fit through the door of my home, and that is not sarcasm, I am being literal. Monday. I’m back on the wagon on Monday.

I’m going to try to avoid discussing weight loss on this page, so you probably won’t hear much about it after this. That being said, Monday is the day. July 15, 2013. Back on the wagon.

Wish me luck.