Last Night

My mother has a lot of nagging physical issues. Pain, in her back, in her legs, in her hips. Nothing that by itself is a problem, but all combined it makes things tough on her. She sits down until it bothers her, then she walks around until it bothers her, then she sits down… you get the idea.

Yesterday she spent over six hours plugged into an IV to get her first dose of chemo. She was sitting, but when she needed to walk around she couldn’t. By the time the treatment was done she was a mess. Ever since the brain tumor hit nine years ago, she’s had some memory issues and sometimes gets a little confused. The events of the day yesterday made that worse too.

At one point after she got home from the hospital she fell and couldn’t get up. She needed help. After that she was way worse all around. She didn’t seem to hurt herself when she fell, but it just made everything that was already bad worse. We called the doctor and got an on call doc who wasn’t much help. He tried, but he just wasn’t very helpful. Eventually we got a decent set of marching orders, and she was allowed an extra dose of pain meds. It took a few hours but she finally went to sleep. My sister stayed at my parents’ house last night just in case, but nothing happened.

That was treatment number one. I don’t know how many more there will be, but we were told that the following appointments will move much faster than the first one. We’ve got that going for us, I guess.

It’s too soon to tell, but there might be some good news. She hasn’t had any obvious side effects from the chemo yet. She handled this drug the last time, but that doesn’t necessarily mean she will this time. So far so good though.

This blows.

Chemo Day

My mother is receiving her first chemotherapy treatment in just under 10 years today. My father and my sister went with her to the appointment but they didn’t let my sister in with her. They did let my father in. That’s good, but we were really hoping COVID-19 would let them both in… even though I think we all knew that wouldn’t be the case.

She is getting a dose of Rituxin. The process is going to take four to six hours. We were really hoping it would go faster than that. She took this drug the last time she went through chemo, but she took the dose along with another drug or two she had to be checked into the hospital for the other one.

I’m trying not to worry. I’m trying not to freak out. Mostly I’m doing well with that, but my mom’s getting chemo so… you know how it is.

Fingers crossed. Let’s go, science! Kick cancer’s ass. I’m rooting for you.

Chemo

If the state of the world isn’t fucked enough right now.

After 10 years, my mother is going back on chemotherapy. It’ll be a couple of weeks before the insurance clears and all of that, but she’s going back onto Rituxan.

She beat it before, she’ll beat it again.