I can’t even tell you how badly I need this. Now. Today.
Category: Music
I Don’t Have the Tools
I had a bad morning. I was all emotional and messed up and stuff. Two really awful night’s sleep in a row put me in a pretty screwy state of mind. Before I fell into my personal little black hole I was talking to Jen about things we can do to keep our heads. Seems ironic now. I said that I need to try and give myself the illusion of control over our crummy situation and one of the ways I can do that is to try and be creative. I’m going to keep trying to write and record terrible songs until it’s all over. Of course I had the opportunity to work on music this morning but did I? No. Bad day.
March is almost over. I want to do another 10 songs in April. My tiny little brain wants to change the March process up (guitar straight into an amp, like some kind of neanderthal) by allowing one pedal. My little Fuzz Face mini. I have heard that a Fuzz Face circuit is really simple. What, thought me, if I gave myself another project and finally built a pedal of my own? There are companies that will sell you kits with all the parts you need and you just have to assemble it all. I was so going to do it. Then I realized I don’t own a soldering iron. Or solder. Or literally any tool required to build a circuit board. Damn it. I guess we’ll punt on this until after the COVID-19 gives us our lives back.
I did go looking for youtube videos showing people building fuzz pedals. There are a couple, but nothing really like what I want to see. Instead I found an episode of That Pedal Show from 2015. I’ve never watched this one, but they compare a few different Fuzz Face pedals.
Let this video kill off 11-12 minutes worth of your coronavirus exile.
Mood Music
Live at both ends but a little dead in the middle.
Guilt
I follow a lot of musicians on various social media platforms. I follow a lot of performers. I follow a lot of politicians too. They all have something in common right now.
They all want my money.
Politicians are looking for money because it’s an election year. Performers are looking for money because COVID-19 has put them out of work. None of them are asking for handouts, but they are all asking. Please buy some merch. Please by my music on bandcamp. Please buy a ticket to my stageit show. Please pledge on patreon.
I have the same answer to all of these requests. I would if I could, but I can’t. We’re still working but the economy is collapsing. I can’t afford to give money to any cause right now. We could all be out of work tomorrow. How can I give you money today when my family might need food tomorrow. Come on, I can’t help you guys. I want to, I swear I do and I absolutely would if the situation were different. It’s not though, so don’t be surprised when I get tired of feeling the guilt and start lashing out.
The world is shit right now for all of us. I can’t help you without putting my family at risk. Just lay off, please.
Morning Music
Mood Music
I wanted to do this yesterday, but spotify was being a dick.
Mood music: If ever there was a time that needed this…
Thursday Night Music
The March 2020 Music Album in a Month RPMarch thing whatever it’s called made progress tonight. Two of the four rhythm guitar free songs now have rhythm guitar. I played my SG tonight instead of my Les Paul. I don’t know why. It means I have SG Hipstamatic pics to post though.
Shake to Shuffle rides again.
I Promise
Music and Money
I’ve mentioned that at the start of March I decided to curb my post-RPM Challenge blues by doing another RPM Challenge. I’m still working on it though it is very easy to be distracted by other things right now. I’ve got two songs done, six more partially done, and I still need two more.
This morning there was a post on the RPM Challenge Facebook group (I didn’t check the actual RPM Challenge website, it might be there too) suggesting we all take advantage of being stuck at home indefinitely and do another RPM Challenge in April. Good idea! I mean, I was already planning on it, but I don’t have to do it alone. Why not? Why not use our stay-at-home time to do something creative? I’m all for it… but I would have been without a global pandemic to lock me in the house so I guess I’m not the target audience there.
Turning to politics, remember when Andrew Yang was running for president and proposed giving everyone in the USA a $1,000 stipend every month? I thought it was a good idea. A creative way to help those in need as well as to stimulate the economy. I also loved the implied, “you think Sanders is a socialist? Wait till you get a load of this” vibe.
Yesterday Mittens Romney threw out a similar proposal. Today Joe Kennedy did as well, though he provided some actual details with his idea. Now it sounds like the fucking white house is jumping on the wagon. They may be considering a plan similar to Yang’s.
First off, let me get it out of the way… if the dickless president really wants to make being anti-socialist a platform in his campaign, then giving away money isn’t a good way to do it. I expect that anyone who ever said a negative word about socialism should refuse that money, right? Just like they refuse public schools and public fire departments, and trash pick up, and police, and snow plows, and highways, and all of those other socialist things.
Second, can we just make Andrew Yang president now? Like, let’s all vote today and just give him the job. The proposal he made that everyone laughed at could very well be law within days. Good work, Mr Yang. Smart leadership is what we need and it is literally the furthest thing away from what we have.
So as for the social distancing, today is my second day working from home. Yesterday felt like a normal telecommute day. All day long I had this idea in the back of my mind that I would be back in the office tomorrow, same as any other telecommuting day. It really wasn’t until I got up this morning and didn’t drive to work (I drove to the super market instead) that it really started sinking in. Things are different.
There is a little sense of stir craziness, sure, but mostly what I am feeling today is the sense that this is going to be really hard to do. Some how removing the commute and the office from the work day equation is going to make things more difficult? I don’t get it, but that feels like where this is heading. I wish I could explain it, but I can’t.
There is so much wrong with the world right now, and I’m not even talking about that textbook nazi prick in the white house. There is so much out of wack that I can’t figure out what to focus my worries on. I’m trying to only worry about things I can control like stocking the pantry and working from home and making sure everyone has what they need to do their work/school work without driving each other to drink (wink). I don’t want to worry about all the other shit. I don’t want to worry about the projections or the infection rates, or the mortality rates, or the stock market, or layoffs or closings, or the fact that I am weeks overdue for a haircut and now can’t get one (anyone want to lend me their flowbee?).
Positivity used to be the hardest thing in the world for me before I met Jen. It’s still not easy, but it is closer to my normal mindset. I am trying real hard to stay positive through all of this. I may need to bash my guitar around in order to pull it off, but I owe it to everyone to do my best to keep the ship upright. (I typo’d ship as shit and somehow that sounds better to me, hehe)
So keep your shit together, planet Earth. I have faith in you. You can do it. Now let’s all celebrate St Patrick’s Day in our self imposed isolation by listening to some Irish music. No, not U2. No, not Makem and Clancy…
Rory Gallagher (I wanted the Irish Tour album but those pukes at Spotify don’t have it)
Yesterday’s Music
Here are the two songs I finished recording yesterday. I mixed them this morning. I bent my low-fi idea a little and put some more effects onto some of the tracks than I was planning on, but it’s still pretty simplistic. No doubling anywhere (though there are more vocal harmonies than I was planning to do. I have a hard time not putting harmonies into choruses).
And just for schnitzengiggles (we watched Beerfest last night) does wordpress.com recognize hearthis.at sets yet?
DOOOD! IT RECOGNIZED THE SET! (at least it did in preview mode, let’s publish the post and see what happens)
Addendum: The playlist displays, but it doesn’t seem to play anything but the first track. That could be my browser though.








