Tag: loss

I Hate Moments Like This

I just read a news article talking about where the biggest free agents in Major League Baseball could be signing during this off season. The article predicted a couple of big names signing in Boston. I don’t know if that’s going to happen or not, but my first thought upon finishing the article was to send it to my father.

Shit.

I still have moments like this with my mother. Moments where I think to mention something to her only to then remember that she’s gone. Now I have to deal with things like that for my father too. He’s only been gone for about four months. It seems like yesterday, but also it seems like it never happened. I guess for both of my parents the reason it seems like it never happened is because I want it to have never happened.

I hate moments like this. I expect I’ll be hating them for the rest of my life. I miss my parents. This xmas is going to be tough.

Well, That was Painful

I did a little funeral planning today. My step daughter, Bellana, is going to sing a song at the service and I had to call the parish musical director to get a copy of the arrangement. I mentioned whose funeral it was and she got all sad. She knew my parents and extended her condolences. She said she hoped my mother was doing okay.

Well, in her defense, my parents stopped going to this church when they moved out of town about three years ago. The music director hadn’t seen or heard from them at all over that time. While my mother’s funeral a year and a half ago was in this very same church, I did not expect her to remember that.

Still… I’m already feeling pretty low over losing my father but then to have to share that my mother’s been gone for over a year. Yeah, that was a bit of a gut punch. Ouch, babie. Ouch.

Dad’s wake is the day after tomorrow. The funeral is the day after that.

It is Happening Again

How can it be? History really seems to be repeating itself.

My beloved Boston Bruins are choking again. AGAIN!

THEY ARE CHOKING AGAIN!

I only saw the first period last night and to my untrained eye they sure looked pretty lifeless, as Toronto was outshooting them at one point 11 to 1. The score at the start of the third period was 1-0 Toronto, which given what I saw seemed miraculous, and the final was 2-1 Leafs.

I can’t believe it is happening again.

Game seven is Saturday. My confidence level is squarely at zero right now.

Again… again. Ugh.